Oh my!

I have no idea why I did this today, but I went back on Sarah Robinson’s site (I linked it – but it is http://www.escaping-mediocrity.com)

I went back over the ’30 days to changing your game” series…  I read through the posts and the comments again.

I realized how many people I follow on Twitter or follow their blogs, I met through this series.  Wonderful people.  Generous people.  Caring people.  Supportive people. #awesome #amazing

I had actually forgotten how many of the people I interact with came from this series… again – amazing 🙂

I also realized that there were things I thought, imagined and swore I was going to do/change while those 30 days went on.  I haven’t done all of them.  I have done some of them.

When the series started, I found myself hesitant to comment…  I read the posts and comments and had opinions (of course), but I didn’t lend my voice…  I can’t imagine being hesitant any more.. so chalk up at least one thing I learned and accomplished. (and I did get better in the end!)

While those 30 days were going on… I had to keep asking myself what I wanted to change, what I wanted to do… and all I could come up with evolved around writing and getting myself back into shape.

Now?  Well, I resigned from that very, very well paying job.  I have started 2 companies and am trying to get them off the ground.

I still want to write, for sure, but I have not. <<will work on that…

All of the anxiety and the bad ‘mojo’ from last year has been eliminated from my soul.

I have gone through days of pure joy.

I have gone through days of pure hell.

I have gone through days of a roller coaster ride of both… 🙂

I have re-connected with some of the people – the tribe I met through this series… and that makes me smile.

Where am I now?  I am sitting on that wall between WTF am I doing… and I love what I’m planning and want to do!  Hope it works!  I know that when Sally reads this, she will give me a HARD shove away from the WTF! 🙂

Why is this so hard for me?

I think if I were single, I would be in a different mindset…  but, I may have just moved to a different location and gotten a job doing the same old thing for some robotic corporation… (programming database applications, system architecture, etc… or as my husband and mother put it… computer geek shit).

If I were single, I wouldn’t worry if this would work…

But I am not single, nor do I plan to be, so I must move forward and MAKE this work.

After becoming unemployed – resigned without a next step in place… (YIKES!)…  I wrote down everything that I am good at doing, and everything that I ENJOY doing… and this is where the 2 companies came from…

I decided a few things…

  • I do NOT want to work for anyone (permanently) again.
  • I do NOT want to go to useless meetings.
  • I do NOT want to sit in a cubicle and be a drone.
  • I DO want to get in, do projects and move on.
  • I DO want to do something that I love.

Having a husband, a 4 year old, and a dog that depend on my ability to pay the bills has really been the only thing that has caused me anxiety over this adventure.

Well, setting up the actual business stuff has produced some too, considering I have never done this stuff…

But the end result?  I’m happy.  I’m excited.  I’m ready.

So in essence, this post is a shout out to Sarah and her series…. the tribe of people I met through it, and the support I have gotten through my online community, both people from this series and not…

I also have extremely great support from people I met through supporting Southland, NCIS, Stargate and other great shows, along with other people that I am not sure how I ‘met’ – but am grateful that I did!! #justsaying  (need to write a good Follow Friday Post and call out these great people individually…  I will 🙂  soon…)

I really am blessed.

Thank You ALL 🙂

6 Responses to “Oh my!”

  1. Sarah Robinson Says:

    Wow Shelly! I am thrilled beyond belief that 30 Days had such an impact on you. I must agree – the Tribe that gathered there and continues to gather at the blog is a pretty amazing bunch.

    You’ve accomplished some amazing things since that blog series. Let me be among the first to say WELL DONE!


  2. randomshelly Says:

    Thanks Sarah! The tribe is awesome… I’m lucky to have been a part of it and thankful for the lessons and the people! 🙂

  3. Deb Bruser ( JoyFull_deb) Says:

    YaY!!!….I was glancing through some of the 30 Day stuff, as well. Must be something in the air. I am SUPER happy that you, “just did it!” It ain’t for sissy’s, as our friend Sally G. says.

    I’m delighted that You are on your path…good things will come your way, I know it!!

    As for “the tribe,” well, it is awesometastic and we will and do support ” our own”…I’ll be watching now & reading this blog to see what fabulous things are happening.

    (((HUGE HUGS)))

    • randomshelly Says:

      I still have such good vibes from that 30 days and all the people! I love it!

      It has been quite an adventure! Thanks for the support! SO appreciated – will lend mine whenever needed also 🙂

      {{{{HUGS back!!!}}}}

  4. Sally G. Says:

    Sarah’s been such a gift to so many. As are you Shelly!

    No hard shoves here. I TOTALLY get the ‘shut down’ that begins when lives other than your own are involved. Responsibility is as much a gift as it is a burden.

    I think you’re amazing. And I’m hoping now that I’m following all of your blog pages! Thank you for sending me this link!!

    • randomshelly Says:

      It is such a gift! and I wouldn’t trade it for anything.. (well except 10 minutes here and there every once in while! LOL)

      Thanks for not giving a me bruised shove – I knew you’d know the right amount to shove!

      I think you already know that I think you are amazing – but I am willing to write it again and again 🙂

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